Life must go on

On 5th december 2015 we made a trip to melacca. Our main purpose is to visit chik nong who is not well due to breast cancer.

When we saw her she was overwhelmed to see us. She cried while telling us about her feet and she has no appettite recently.

All of us felt sad and my mind thought about arwah mak and my mother in law. How they gone through what chik nong is going through now.

I hope that i will not trouble anyone especially my husband and my children. I wish that i will die easy like arwah abah.

I dont want to be a burden to anyone. Soon my husband will marry his new wife. I dont know wether he will take care of me when i am sick. He will have a lot on his plate, can he deal with it?

I will take care of myself. I dont want him to get caught in the middle between me and her. Let him be happy with his new wife. I dont want to depend on him anymore.

Life must go on...with or without him by my side.