love is blind..

Love is blind... itulah ungkapan yg selalu kita dengar. Cinta itu buta atau manuaia yang buta hati.

As for me love is a wonderful feelings between two person. It is pure, honest and trust.....but i have lost all that in one day.

Can i trust him ever again?? Every day i thought that he is going to meet her, call her and spend time together. eventhough i know for the fact she is living outside of kl. But the trust is no longer there...

each time i hear his phone rings or beeps i always thought it's her...am i paranoid. I hate to feel this way each day...i don't know how long i can stand with all this.

Last night i slept on the floor... i don't think he even realised that. I was sad i know he was not feeling well. But he just climb up the bed and face the other way and went to sleep without even saying a word to me. How would that make anyone feel?

I cried and felt useless.... how long can i take it? It will eventually eating me inside until one day i just can't wake up anymore.
Until one day i just give up to live anymore..

The pain is growing each day ...and i feel my chest hurts everyday. Ya Allah please give me strenght to move on with my life....

Am i worth anything to you??

Teman lelaki upahan...

Nice story about a happy go lucky guy and a beautiful but very arrogant success women.

Two different character but ended up falling in love with each other...totally unpredictable right because they were meant to be together.

I remember the first time we've met was when i walked in your deparment and been introduced as the "the new kid on the block".

the first time i saw you my heart just pumped so fast...but i acted calmly but only Allah knows how my heart was on that day.

fate works so amazingly we started to go out on a date... it was wonderful. We had great time together. I wish that i can turn back time to the first time we went out.

Every thing went perfectly right until one day i got to know that you're engaged with one of your distance relative chose by your mother. If i had known you were engaged i would stay as far away from you. At that time i had someone else who really loves me but i couldn't love him back because he was my ex boyfriend's best friend. That was the end of my relationsip with that guy and i haven't heard from him since.

After i knew you were engaged, we tried to break up a few times but because we love each other so much we can't be apart. Then you make a bold decision to go against your parents and cancelled the engagement. It was a bravest move by a guy to do. God knows how you fought for me and until now i can't forget and very glad you did it for me.

Will you do the same for her?? Do you love her that much until you would go against all odds...

It really hurt when you know that your love of your life has someone else and can call her sayang ...besides you.

Allah please give me strenght and courage to go through this.. it hurts the cut is so deep. Sometime i wonder when we're in bed together were you thinking about her.

Now i realised why is it during the last two years you were different with me. You were always angry.. everything i do is wrong.
you always critised the way i look. You starts to compare between me and her.

I know now that i am not the sexy, beautiful, fair and smart women as she is. I am who i am. I chose to be where i am now because of you. You wanted a woman who can take care of your children and always be home when you came back from work.

But when i look at her she is a career woman who loves freedom but still you can fell in love with her....am i so stupid and useless to you. I sacrifised my job for you i ignored my dreams just to be a good wife to you...are all these worth it for me??

I am happy because i can take care of our children, you and i had the chance to take care of arwah mak. But now i am really sad that all my sacrifises don't mean a thing to you... do i worth anything to you anymore??

will you still be mine?

We've known each other more than 19 years..you've met her only for two years..

but you've fallen in love with her?? Do you still love me that is the question in my mind every day..i asked my self..

I know i am not beautiful, sexy and smart like her. But this is me .. the same person you've been married to. I know i am not good in pleasing your needs.. i tried. Maybe i am just being myself. I am  a lover but not a sexy sultry women you want me to be.

For me love is not only about sex but the feelings of belonging with each other, respect and grateful of being in each other arms for the rest of our life.

It's not easy to wake up each day and pretend nothing happen. It happened..we can never deny it. I am trying so hard to keep this between us. My heart cried out every day and sometimes it is so painful until i can't breath.

You broke my heart...but i still love you because deep inside me knows that i am the reason all this happen. I have not been a good wife to you. I am sorry... trust me i will never blame you ...or her.

I really hope you will always be mine..

why me???

All women want to fall in love once...
want to get married once in their lifetime.

Love is the greatest and wonderful feelings that is inside each and everyone of us.. given the privilege by Allah to loved and be loved.

but when one day you found out that your love has betrayed you...how does it make you feel.. you can't blame fate for it. But you try to find your fault and try to change..

Life is a journey...you have to walk through it and understand why it happened...why you???