will you still be mine?

We've known each other more than 19 years..you've met her only for two years..

but you've fallen in love with her?? Do you still love me that is the question in my mind every day..i asked my self..

I know i am not beautiful, sexy and smart like her. But this is me .. the same person you've been married to. I know i am not good in pleasing your needs.. i tried. Maybe i am just being myself. I am  a lover but not a sexy sultry women you want me to be.

For me love is not only about sex but the feelings of belonging with each other, respect and grateful of being in each other arms for the rest of our life.

It's not easy to wake up each day and pretend nothing happen. It happened..we can never deny it. I am trying so hard to keep this between us. My heart cried out every day and sometimes it is so painful until i can't breath.

You broke my heart...but i still love you because deep inside me knows that i am the reason all this happen. I have not been a good wife to you. I am sorry... trust me i will never blame you ...or her.

I really hope you will always be mine..