The love of my life

Sayang,

Today is 4th of december 2015 (friday). This means another nine days is your big day with her.

Semakin dekat sayang my heart beats even faster each day. I really hope that we will have the best of nine days in our life. I dont know if i can go through these days without tears and feeling sad.

I really want to be happy, but i do know that you are happy because soon she will be yours forever.

I cant stop but to think how it will be after your wedding...will you still be mine? Will you still love me the way you use to? Can i look at your face without seeing her?

I really dont know... i just hope Allah will give me strenght to move on even it hurts me so much.

I hope you will be happy with her. And you will have a better marriage than when you are with me.

So long my sweetheart the love of my life...