My love, my life you are my everything...

Today is 23rd of November 2015 and exactly 21 days from today you are getting married with your new partner. The love of your life....

I don't know how i want to express my feelings at this moment.

I am scared... scared that you might neglect me and the kids after you married her.
I am happy...happy for you because more than two years of waiting will soon paid of.
I am sad... sad because after sixteen years of living together now i have to face my life without you always by my side.

I am used to wake up every morning and looking at you sleeping beside me. Now we are going to have lesser time together.

Imagine this i will see you during weekdays if my turn is on weekdays. We will only see each other from the time you reach home that would be around seven or eight at night. Then we eat dinner then watch tv together. By 11 we will have to go to sleep. So the next morning we will have about 1 or 2 hours before you go to  work and i have to send the children to school. Basically i will see you roughly four to five hours everyday. Three to four days in a week.

If our turn falls during the weekend so we will have more time together. After sixteen years of marriage i have to get use to this. I really dont know if i can go through this or not. I really hope that Allah can give me strenght to move on.